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SOMETIMES
Sometimes …..
Sometimes I find myself sitting in the shallows
Not really engaging in anything
My mind is a blank
My heart is numb
My vision obscured
It’s not really enjoyable because I sense the absence of myself
Dwelling on some deep internal thought
The shallows can be quite a lonely place
There are many who I sit among who are doing the same
but, I don’t really communicate with them
Isolated
Sometimes I find myself at the breaking point
With my body entangled in the scratchy seaweed
The waves keep coming relentlessly
Crashing over me
Knocking me down
Twisting and turning
Trying to find the ground
No rest for me here
I try to swim against the rage to reach the place where it is smooth and calm
Where I can see
I cannot push myself against the crashing waves
One after the other
They keep coming
Some find this recklessness challenging
Sometimes
I find myself in the deep
The deep dark waters where No bottom can be touched
No bottom can be seen
Dark waters
The sea is smooth and calm
But underneath these still waters
I find myself swimming
Swimming
Swimming
It is a peace that requires much exertion
At first it seems enjoyable but, then I find myself tired and lonely
There are not too many close to me here
In fact, I see no one at all
I hear them in the distance calling
I feel the swelling power of the water all around me
It lifts me up and down
But, I am still swimming
Running through these waters
I am weary of this
Where do I go ?
What am I doing here?
Who told me I had to do any of this?
Finally,
I get the courage amidst my weakened state to swim back to the shallows were I was numb
I watch the water swell behind me and I lunge forward into the breaking point
The waves crashing pushing me forward while I tumble every way
Face in the sand
Can’t see above me
I keep swimming
Until I finally reach the shallows
Quiet
Quietly I sit
Trying to gather myself together
Stinging eyes
Scrapped knees
Salty mouth
It occurs to me
I am no longer numb
I can still feel the plunging
The twisting
The turning
I can still see the seaweed tangled in my hair
Sand in my mouth
Is this the story?
Is this how it goes?
What was it that brought me here?
What was I thinking?
I start over ……..
INTO THE VOID
Where your conscience speaks to you there you will find your spirituality! There you will find your truth!
There you will realize what you must do !
The day of gurus, power preachers, celebrities and the Demi gods of idol worship are crumbling….
Little by little all that was is no more…..
There are no groups to join, no parties to hold onto, or any longer any religion that can condemn you or help you in front of this world.
It is only in this freedom you will come into conscious contact with God!
God is commanding a personal private appointment with you….
wake up! The universe is watching to see what will you do!
All that we knew is but rubbish ….. when we are in This magnificent presence!
How small we are and how short is this “ life”….
What will you do with the talents ? Will you
bury them?
Chaos has brought us to this place and it is out of the chaos we will find our journey!
JUDGING!
JUDGING
You want to know what separates people?
Creates hate?
Creates animosity?
Creates years of misunderstanding?
Keeps people away from God?
Makes people think that they must work hard to be good Christians so God will love them?
Create fear of being not included?
Fear of being excluded?
Fear of not being enough?
Fear of being too much?
Must I keep going???????????????
JUDGING!
How horribly deceptive , destructive and disconnected is this power we can use against each other!
We all have our opinions and that is totally different …. Your opinion is yours and it should not be something forced on anyone else. This is intelligence!
How much has this ugly force of judging yourself destroyed you?
Judging others?
Judging even God?
How much has this cost you?
Has it ever brought any benefits?
Now please do not be confused with the legal system …. Because if your thinking like that at the moment than you most likely need to think about this subject more. Being defensive is the weapon of judging !!!!!!
They go hand in hand!
If you or I want to change our lives!
Change our families!
Change others!
Than stop JUDGING !!!!!!
We have all done things, failed, made mistakes, wrong choices, hurt others, amd our list of skeletons continue as they rattle in our dark closets!
So why? Why when we may find ourselves in a “ better” position at the moment do we feel the need to find those we can look down at to judge?
Don’t we know by now that life goes up and down……
Judging is so in spiritual that even Jesus was repulsed by it, and many spiritual teachings speak against it!
Yet, we will find some of the best judges in spiritual circles! Go figure!
People with money love to judge … they actually believe because they have made money or received it they are better people snd their opinions hold power to judge others. I think they are called hypocrites? Yes!
Knowledge is another one! People who have acquired knowledge feel that their educated thoughts, ideas and opinions are golden! Now to be clear I respect education and those who have attained . But, I think we are all enrolled in the University called Life.
We are all learning!
Using your education to judge others that are close to you creates division.
If we could learn to take things like our money, our education and etc…. and use them to help others not based on judgment but, love how much better off we would be!
Obviously there are times we all will need to use our discretion in situations but have we learned how to do this without judgment?
How can we really believe we are capable of judging others lives when we may actually know nothing or very little about them? That is idiotic!
If we desire to walk in our power and truth we must be willing to look at those we judge for the very things we see. The world around us is a cosmic mirror and it does reflect what we see… it may not look the same exactly. But, it will be there if we are truly willing to look for it.
Are you?
Am I?
YOUR GIFT
The Gift
The greatest gift you can give to others is to honor their sacred path
Love allows this!
We need to learn to see that although we are connected, we each have a path we must trod
We may journey together but, our path is our own
This is your destiny!
Many times in our lives we may see someone we feel is making a wrong choice based on our perception of what is right or wrong
Truth is that they may or may not be making a mistake or maybe you could be wrong …. Maybe? Possibly?
Either way you must let others choose their path and not judge them for it
Each one of us needs to be true to ourselves wherever we are at in life
and there maybe times that you will be confronted with the judgement of others while being true to yourself.
Be true to yourself anyway!
They may never agree to your choices, they may realize they were wrong or they may realize it’s not their choice to make
Still be true to yourself
Whatever choices you make on your journey you will reap the consequences or benefits along the way. This is what life is about.
Instead of judging we should be cheering others on for being true especially, when the choice they make is not easy, maybe risky and will be hard.
Being true to yourself has nothing to do with making all the choices that feel good or look good
It is when we make the choices that we feel that if we do not make we will feel regret that are truthful
Mistakes can be corrected
Regret is forever!
Be true to yourself!
This is YOUR GIFT!
Parents and Children
Children stop punishing your parents !
Parents stop punishing your children!
To withdraw or withhold ones relationship or love to inflict pain ….
How can this action be healthy of mind?
Let the pain go!
What we learn too late in life is that pain is reproduced through our own offspring and regret cannot be undone.
Why would a parent punish a child who does not do enough, give enough or “be” enough?
Why would a child do the same?
How could this behavior produce any positive result?
Children you may not remember all that your parent suffered , sacrificed and cared for you and the many nights they did not sleep ….
Are you still keeping them awake tonight?
Parents you may not have been aware of all the times your children have given you their hearts in something as a simple drawing, a kiss or hug
Are you still looking for something more?
I have seen so many people suffer because of this deep pain ( parents and children) sometimes from both ends at the same time.
Isn’t the world harsh enough without adding to it?
If there is one sadness in the world that if it was rectified that could change the whole world ….it would be this sadness!
Why do those who are closest to us break our hearts?
Yet, it is when this connection is severed, punished or unrecognized that we will reap what we have sown.
You cannot retrieve back the time that has been lost and there is not enough money to pay the price for this grief
The days grow shorter
Why ?
Will it be worth it?
Will it truly matter?
Pain reproduces itself and we never learn this until it’s too late
Parents love your children
Children love your parents
This disconnection that exists among us that has caused untold amounts of deep quiet grief and torture is an empty well
Is your grudge big enough?
Is it “ strong” enough?
When will we stop expecting, judging and hurting each other?
Why can’t a child learn to love their parent the best that they can?
Why can’t parents do the same?
There is one thing on this earth you cannot forget ….
A parent cannot forget a child and a child cannot forget a parent
We get to decide how we are going to carry this memory through our actions of today.
Is being “ right” more important than being “ happy”?
You may say I don’t care but, if you don’t think you do now , does not mean that you won’t later ?
Stop withholding your love, your kindness and your time.
Stop the cycle!
Children will always grow up remembering some “ wrong” and parents will never forget a child’s “ bad” decision
You cannot forget and each has their own views
There are no perfect parents or perfect children!
Stop punishing each other…
One may say , “ I am not doing anything wrong?”
No response is a response
No action is a reaction
How can something so sacred be so broken?
Love each other
Do what you can to enrich each other’s lives
All it takes is a phone call
A message
A visit
A simple I love ❤️ you
Don’t waste your time
Is your right to be “ right” worth discovering your choice was harmful and wrong?
Using your “ right”, or “ choice” , or even “ perception” to punish each other today could earn painful scars tomorrow !
Tears that cannot be undone –
Showing love takes a lot less energy than punishing someone either by action or inaction
Choose Love!
Parents talk to your children
Children talk to your parents
Don’t be too late!
Pain reproduces itself …….
Just look around and see …. The truth is before you everywhere you turn.
Signed,
A Parent
Control or Responsibility
Control or Responsibility
Self realization is not just the seeing of the internal truth we hold dear but, it is also seeing the external truth that is present. We cannot disconnect one from the other although, we can place our intention and attention on one or the other at any time. It is when we turn inward to seek the truths of our soul then we are capable of opening our eyes to see the truths of the external that surrounds us. Everything is connected! There is so much internally that we disassociate from but, when we learn to connect to the internal source then we can open our eyes and decipher the external truth that is either hidden or we are blind to. In these external truths they will speak to us and tell us what we need to know to grow and we will also find answers to our questions. If you are sitting and you are meditating, turn inward find your present sacred space, when you find that place where you are present open your eyes and look all around you what is it you see? Allow your soul explain the landscape that is before you. In that landscape you will find the disharmony and harmony of your soul. There are many truths to be seen !
Today my truth is what is it that I am attempting to constantly control or feel the need to control and what is my responsibility to my soul . My responsibilities are necessary to be authentically at peace. We seek peace in so many ways and yet we don’t realize that control will never lead us to peace. We have inadequacies within us and we seek to control our environment and those that are around us so that we may feel at peace or feel solidified.
We may see around us some things that do mirror our peace and fruitfulness and yet, laying beside it can be something that is chaotic, disorderly and maybe even dirty.
These contradictions is where we find ourselves in a dilemma of control or responsibility. This problem is what causes so many health issues within the body. It is when the mind is confusing the rest of the body with messages that our being sent from our disconnection and disorderly internal dialogue that we get confused. Find out what you are responsible for and remove what it is that you are trying to control. Those things that you are trying desperately to control or actually situations that you cannot control without forcibly using energy that is not in harmony with yourself. You are only responsible for the things that your soul needs to thrive! Let go of Control!
Resurrection of a Goddess
Resurrection of a Goddess
I’m 6 months tired
It has been a long horrific journey
Call me a wild crazy woman
Call me untamed, unbridled and unhinged
That lonely woman has gone to sleep and now I have awakened whole
I am ferocious
I am strong in body, unharnessed in Spirit and unraveled of mind
I am pure intention now
Everything I do draws fantastic intention
God remembers me!
Without the lure of intention I have no interest … be gone!
I now longer hear the voices of my scars
Peace has won!
I have been carved from the stones of my painful stories creating jagged cliffs that invite me to soar
I am a force …. I am brutal wisdom !
I am a rage with holy fire within my bones and shackled love consumes me where hate violated my soul
I rise! I burn! I RISE! Flames fall from my whispering songs
I am unfamiliar to the world, I hold the shedding skins of my youthful dreams
I am free now!
Timeless
Eternal
Ageless
I have danced on the worn out masks of illusion grinding them into fine dust
Incapacitated and drunk on the words of my invisible captors
I laugh as their curses fall to the ground like broken chains
I am the key
I am the lock
I see all that belongs to me
It is in me
I AM
I honor this sacred transformation
I breath in beauty to receive
With an open heart… can see
Come ! Let me go!
I am the hidden of ancient knowledge and speak a thousand tongues
I am the mystery from the hidden depths of countless seas
I carry within me the birth of Universes
I am the light that dwells in darkness and the darkness cannot understand
The Earth knows my name and calls to me
Come lay with us!
We are One!
I know longer exist in the chaos of shattered vision
I am covered with eyes!
Who can say they know me?
No one!
I am a temple of the unseen Creator
I give birth
I give life
I am the beginning and I am the end
Who can know me?
None!
A FRIEND
My friend, hold on to this beautiful truth!
“Those who love you are not fooled by mistakes you have made, or dark images you hold about yourself.
They remember your beauty when you feel ugly;
your wholeness when you are broken;
your innocence when you feel guilty;
and your purpose when you are confused.”💛
~ An African Saying ~
COLLIDING STARS
We almost collided,
ALMOST
We were just stars,
at the edges of neighbouring galaxies,
just about to collide,
but passed by each other,
never touching,
yet feeling the stardust
in each others’ wake.
Nikita Gill
Art ≈ Midnight Stroll by Kori-Z
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