The pain we feel inside our souls or minds which are connected in complexity to millions of the unseen emotions, ideas and desires of our heart like vessels. This deep pain creates and becomes an inner conflict and a resistance to that which we are experiencing without ourselves ( on the outside). Internal pain or conflict is created when we resist those circumstances we experience outside of our soul, body and our minds. We may resist those situations or persons for many reasons; it could be confusion, anger, our unforgiveness and loss of faith. There are myriads of reasons that could create such a deep inner turmoil inside a soul that would cause it to become so conflicted it begins to lose its faith or eyes to see with. Our souls were created to have vision and feel to create and be that part of ourselves that paints our lives. Once one feels so conflicted within they find their soul’s vision has become darkened like a very dirty window it makes them feel lost or without any special reason. They long to see out but, alas! The harder they look the more conflict arises within. So what is one to do?
What is the world made of? Is it just particles, molecules, atoms and energy? Are we here and then gone? We could ask a million questions and still never be satisfied with the answers or no answers that may lay on the table before us. How do we understand all this? Many of us just want to be happy! Is that too much to ask for? Unfortunately happiness does not come from the world or anything that it may give to us. That is only a perception or an emotional feeling that passes again and again. To find true happiness is only capable if we are to find peace. How does one create peace within themselves? Some may find this not such a difficult task… while others who are confined to the prison of their inner conflicts cannot reach the climax of an idea of peace left to be only more miserable and confused.
We long for someone to love and to have someone love us back in such a way that we may feel whole. But in reality, this is not the truth. No one can make you whole. We are the only one who can create wholeness within each one of us. To depend on anything outside of our being to give us wholeness will only leave us disillusioned as to what wholeness and love is. Which leads me to ask…? Do we know what LOVE really is? Can we trust our own hearts to decipher this intense passion? Many times it is an emotion, an infatuation or even a comfortable arrangement of ideas. So many of us have found us ship wrecked on the rocks of love’s illusion. We are born to believe that love is someone who cares for us, hears our cry, protects us from the monsters, who feeds us when we are hungry and holds us when we want. We don’t think about will this person leave us or find someone else. We are not concerned how much we must do or not do to keep that person with us. So we are taught from the beginning that love is an unconditional feeling even though, we may learn there are rules or habits to life it does not affect love.
From the time we are born we begin to upload like a computer ideas, beliefs, thoughts and opinions which many are not even our own which after many years create who we are. But the questions of truth are …. Is this that we really are? Who we were created to be? Or is this just all the cookies and pages that have been uploaded from others websites… Have we built a website of who we are that doesn’t even look like us? Who do we look like to God? It is all about perspective how we see the world and everything around us. If I took you to a very tall building and I asked you to stand outside and asked you what you could see what would you say? Then if I walked you all around the building to each side? Then if I took you into the lobby? Or what about the 22nd floor looking out the window? Or just sitting in a chair? What if I took you to the top of that building what would you see? Every answer to these questions I have presented would be different because of our perspective but they would all pertain to the same building. If you were that building where are you? What do you see? I have spent years alone trying to release myself from all the uploads of life and I have experienced every human emotion I think one could but, who is the real me? I am the one who is alone, the one who understands that I have come into this world alone and I will leave alone. This is my path, my journey and the decisions I make affect my life the most either negatively or positively. I don’t belong to anyone… I must possess my own soul and heart or I will lose the reflection that is needed to see without and within myself clearly. I guess the fight is to find peace with this feeling of aloneness which at times I perceive as loneliness when I look at the illusion. How do I find my wholeness in my oneness? So many questions…. And yet still so many answers to find. Like a spiritual explorer I set out to find new land, new places to experience seeking the answers that my soul searches for because I know they are there. Don’t you wish we all had a light switch we could just switch over to peaceful oneness whenever we don’t want to feel the negative effects of life? I believe that our lives should have a purpose and not the purpose that was created by this world but the purpose we were born with. I think it is of great importance that we recognize this purpose, this calling of our soul. Otherwise we will always feel the conflict within. Many of us have found our purpose but have not accepted it because the windows of our souls are so dirty that we have no idea what is outside. So we carry on feeling like we are conflicted with that number one question of life “Why am I here?” I have found there is two things that concern me deeply one… Is when I die if I have that moment of time to reflect on my life that I should be left asking – why I was here? Or to feel regret for the things I should have done or said. These two things I have found to be incomprehensible.
Who are you? What is it that your soul reflects from this vast Universe that is alive and conducts itself accordingly, continually expanding? Every star has its purpose, every piece of sand and every bird in the sky or the beast of the field. Can we expand our minds to realize that to find oneness we must connect to everything? It would seem that the greatest truths are such contradictions. Even Jesus would say such contradictory comments an example would be when your poor your rich and when your rich your poor (obviously my version). How do we break the chains of these conflicts and fly and realize the magnificence of life as an ever moving and changing power like a mighty river of energy. Who would not want to jump into such a wonderful river? Yet it has been said by sages we are but a drop of water in a large ocean connected without an outline of ending or beginning.
This spiritual metamorphosis of mind, soul and body to be born into a world small and seemingly insignificant to find ourselves alone in the midst of millions to the point we are faced with such inner conflict that we struggle to break free from this loneliness. Oh just to be a caterpillar again? Humorous! Not understanding that this internal intense struggle within to what we have been surrounded with is that which creates the metamorphosis and brings forth the wings we attain to fly and see our world from a completely different perspective and experience this new life as the same soul but not as the same creature. It is time for many of us to make this transition of spiritual metamorphosis, haven’t you felt the internal struggle the intense conflict, the aloneness, loneliness at times? Realizing that this is not all there is and willing to delete the uploads and begin with the reflection that is left on the monitor of our souls. Angels wish to have wings as beautiful as ours…. They can see us and wonder why we are so blind to what they see. Confused in such a way not to understand why someone who God gave such amazingly beautiful wings each different like our very own fingerprints and we still slither along in our world. We must allow ourselves to play again, to think like children in some ways or we will never believe in butterfly wings. We were not created just to slither along and live our lives and create our world on such common earthy erosions of illusions. Are you feeling stuck? That aloneness that I speak of is it constant? Maybe it’s your time to wake up from what is “earthly” or “let go” of that cocoon of old ideas and beliefs to break free from it’s painful comfortability and see the ever expansive picture. Surprise the angels and spread those wings and fly ~~~~~~~~~~~ reach for new places spiritually. If you have ever noticed a butterfly flits along not even noticing if the breeze is blowing or not. Just exploring one place and then flitting to another. It your time to get out of the cocoon and fly! Reach outside yourself and soon you will find yourself rising above the conflicts. Fly butterfly…… fly!
Perception is not reality…. Only to those who accept perceptions without questioning their validity. Then perception can be entirely an illusion and/or disillusion of our mind depending on your state of being and the rooted beliefs that have been imposed upon your conscious and subconscious mind these beliefs mold your idea of truth. We create our realities through the power of our observation of the world and the information we use to create our thoughts and beliefs. Our perceptions are enslaved to our natural mind and the senses of the body. If we can see it, touch it, hear it, taste it and/or smell it then we believe it must exist in reality. Yet, science has proven that the reality we experience through our senses is one facet of a perceived reality that exists through our observations. We are so much more than just this natural body that consists of flesh, bone and blood or even what we think, feel, taste, see or hear. In fact, these aspects of our natural state of being are the conclusions of our powerful rooted belief systems we have been taught since infancy. These perceived truths are based on manmade theories and the conclusions of antiquated science, fear based religious concepts and cultural ideologies . The ever expansive Universe is constantly expanding and so knowledge is constantly increasing as we are propelled forward into space and time. The science of Quantum physics and the universal consciousness of a diverse spirituality have connected creating a new awareness of thought and a broader spiritual momentum. There appears to be a global shift of consciousness that is waking us up to a new world of open spirituality and universal survival. We are releasing ourselves from the old thought patterns, ideas and actions that have not evolved and do not create purpose. This radically quiet evolution of consciousness that is currently taking place is like a butterfly that is freeing itself from its safe warm cocoon. So many have become disenchanted and realized that there must be something much more purposeful, more powerful and real beyond the security of a cocoon that they have outgrown. Those fearless ones who desire to free their minds from the boundaries of what they have accepted as Truth and spread their wings to apprehend new realities of revelation and change. This new awakening does not negate the existence of God … No – quite the opposite. The experience of this new shift of consciousness expands the existence of God in our reality. This inner spiritual expansion reveals God to us on God’s terms, not according to what we have been taught to believe about God. Once awakened one is astounded by the grand immensity of God who was once molded into the idea of a separated hierarchy and a legalistic dictatorship. This releases our minds from fear and teaches us that humility is not the state of accepting our defects but, humility is the action of gratitude, respect and agreement. A spirituality intimately connected with God who is not denominational, prejudice or held captive to books, stories, songs, ceremony, rules and interpretation. I am not implying God is not evident in such things because God exists everywhere and is manifested in the seen and unseen alike but, the truth is indisputable that God is to vast, complex and mysterious for such an idea. Connecting with God is to awaken to an active consciousness of personal experience with God in all creation seen and unseen, known and unknown. To allow ourselves to experience God, the Universe and Creation in whatever form, power or presence with or without name, gender or being. It is in this complete surrender of self and relinquishing of all previous knowledge that we have acquired that we find ourselves free to roam and discover God without rules, fear, judgment and punishment. A child feels and displays love but must be taught to obey rules, develop fear, acknowledge judgment and express hate. So we must come to experience our truth with God as a child on the basis of Love and trust alone. Not through a second hand truth but, a one on one truth that we have discovered through our very own personal conscious contact. A soul wrenching theophany not influenced by previous conceptions but, through our power to trust that as we set sail into unchartered waters without map and compass we will not be lost at sea. God is love and yet we are taught to fear coloring outside the lines or allowing our creativity to explore God and Creation without limits for in doing so we may fall away, be deceived or relinquish our blessings. These religious rules are etched into our psyche to control us and keep us held captive to a certain theology or dogma. Striving through works to receive rewards creates an allegiance to religion creating defensive mindsets that would challenge it’s authority. The devastating idea of questioning or relinquishing ones faith in the rules of their religion would create the loss of reward. Those who have been caught in the snare of religion cannot accept the possibility of release even if the door of interpretation should swing wide open or the walls of contradiction should crumble to the ground … Holding fast in the cocoon and never spreading their wings of discovery on the breeze of faith to experience the mystical ability to fly. Imagine a bird never realizing that they have the ability to fly …. To sense the deep instinctual desire to release itself from the ground but, not having any awareness to understand that it was created for flying and equipped to do so. Many are spiritually hypnotized under the power of this perception constantly living in conflict, frustrated and disappointed with their spirituality. It appears that those who are sleeping while awake are begging to be awakened from their perceptions to experience a new consciousness that allows them the freedom of limitless exploration without conflict or fear. A spiritual liberation of one’s body, mind, soul and spirit to manifest God in their lives through the powerful mysterious journey that is theirs alone, released from judgment of sin, self inflicted karma and religious heresy. Awakened to our consciousness our spiritual awareness brings into focus those obscurities that have lingered in our imagination in our past causing us to now be sensitive to the vibrations of energy that surrounds us and that creates who we are . Our limited senses that once were used only as the information receptors of our body are now transformed into a system of limitless connectors that create energy drawn from a reality of connective consciousness. Our understanding of what we were before has left us and a clarity of new vision that interprets light, sound, vibration and frequency begins to guide us into previously hidden realms of knowledge, experiences and self discovery. Our spiritual occupation to the path before us has now enlightened our burden of questions and confusion and a new journey has begun that draws our soul to its Source seeking a Divine agreement to accept the mystical guidance of God. The key to being receptive to this new reality is to remain in a state of fluidity as much as possible. This fluidity of being means our ideas, beliefs, experiences and thoughts do not demand the closure that comes from conclusion but they have now accepted that there are no conclusions and no finality of decisions based on the continual movement of the Universe. Revelation is God in an unending expansion of Universes, diverse realms and powerful manifestations . As we progress we are astonished that we have entered into a realm of consciousness and a matrix of energy that begins to unfold the mysteries of the Divine placing us in the position of receiving. God longs to reveal Love to us without any preconceptions of how that must be done. To attempt any idea that we know God or that we should expect God to act or react according to any particular manner by being held hostage to ancient writings is the mindset of religious ignorance. How unbelievably blind to believe that we actually have even the slightest idea that we know who or what God is. Our connections and relationship to God can be and should be as real and personal to each and everyone of us. It would be more achievable for an ant to understand and know what a human is, their name, what gender or where they came from then for us to say we know these characteristics about God. God is not human, understanding the life of Christ and accepting that God manifested in a human form is not unrealistic but, to say we understand that event is still challenging and unattainable. This immense power, a Divine all powerful consciousness who is the Creator of all things that holds all that we know of Creation as a grain of sand is immense beyond all knowledge and yet, as personal to each individual as their own heart. It is when we awaken and are released from all preconceived ideas about God that we begin to see God in all things, even within ourselves. To connect with the Divine through our awakened consciousness and experience the unique power of being a co-creator manifesting God’s will through agreement and not the spiritual beggar who must repeatedly ask for the same thing is spiritually freeing. The action of agreement does not negate our reliance on the power of God or the act of prayer but, it does give us faith to know that we are children of God who have inherited our position to obtain what we ask through this power of agreement. Implementing this miraculous revelation of co-creator and connect it to the powerful knowledge and action of realization that we are awakened to a conscious awareness of energy that we are connected to. we become the movers and shakers of the Spirit.