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Control or Responsibility

Control or Responsibility

Self realization is not just the seeing of the internal truth we hold dear but, it is also seeing the external truth that is present. We cannot disconnect one from the other although, we can place our intention and attention on one or the other at any time. It is when we turn inward to seek the truths of our soul then we are capable of opening our eyes to see the truths of the external that surrounds us. Everything is connected! There is so much internally that we disassociate from but, when we learn to connect to the internal source then we can open our eyes and decipher the external truth that is either hidden or we are blind to. In these external truths they will speak to us and tell us what we need to know to grow and we will also find answers to our questions. If you are sitting and you are meditating, turn inward find your present sacred space, when you find that place where you are present open your eyes and look all around you what is it you see? Allow your soul explain the landscape that is before you. In that landscape you will find the disharmony and harmony of your soul. There are many truths to be seen !

Today my truth is what is it that I am attempting to constantly control or feel the need to control and what is my responsibility to my soul . My responsibilities are necessary to be authentically at peace. We seek peace in so many ways and yet we don’t realize that control will never lead us to peace. We have inadequacies within us and we seek to control our environment and those that are around us so that we may feel at peace or feel solidified.

We may see around us some things that do mirror our peace and fruitfulness and yet, laying beside it can be something that is chaotic, disorderly and maybe even dirty.

These contradictions is where we find ourselves in a dilemma of control or responsibility. This problem is what causes so many health issues within the body. It is when the mind is confusing the rest of the body with messages that our being sent from our disconnection and disorderly internal dialogue that we get confused. Find out what you are responsible for and remove what it is that you are trying to control. Those things that you are trying desperately to control or actually situations that you cannot control without forcibly using energy that is not in harmony with yourself. You are only responsible for the things that your soul needs to thrive! Let go of Control!

Resurrection of a Goddess

Resurrection of a Goddess

I’m 6 months tired

It has been a long horrific journey

Call me a wild crazy woman

Call me untamed, unbridled and unhinged

That lonely woman has gone to sleep and now I have awakened whole

I am ferocious

I am strong in body, unharnessed in Spirit and unraveled of mind

I am pure intention now

Everything I do draws fantastic intention

God remembers me!

Without the lure of intention I have no interest … be gone!

I now longer hear the voices of my scars

Peace has won!

I have been carved from the stones of my painful stories creating jagged cliffs that invite me to soar

I am a force …. I am brutal wisdom !

I am a rage with holy fire within my bones and shackled love consumes me where hate violated my soul

I rise! I burn! I RISE! Flames fall from my whispering songs

I am unfamiliar to the world, I hold the shedding skins of my youthful dreams

I am free now!




I have danced on the worn out masks of illusion grinding them into fine dust

Incapacitated and drunk on the words of my invisible captors

I laugh as their curses fall to the ground like broken chains

I am the key

I am the lock

I see all that belongs to me

It is in me


I honor this sacred transformation

I breath in beauty to receive

With an open heart… can see

Come ! Let me go!

I am the hidden of ancient knowledge and speak a thousand tongues

I am the mystery from the hidden depths of countless seas

I carry within me the birth of Universes

I am the light that dwells in darkness and the darkness cannot understand

The Earth knows my name and calls to me

Come lay with us!

We are One!

I know longer exist in the chaos of shattered vision

I am covered with eyes!

Who can say they know me?

No one!

I am a temple of the unseen Creator

I give birth

I give life

I am the beginning and I am the end

Who can know me?



Emotional Hostage

It’s alright to be damn angry! Stop holding in your emotions!

It is about time you honor your emotions ! The dark and the light, the good and the bad, the shadow of whot you are and are not!

Free yourself from the silent strangulation of control!

If your angry… yell!

If your sad….. cry!

If your afraid…. Scream!

If your happy…. Laugh

How can you expect to be healthy mentally and physically if you live your life everyday strangling yourself!

What a cost there is for such solemn strength!

This is not the strength your soul yearns for…. This is the deep wounds of betrayal to yourself! To your psyche!

Are you sad? Cry!

Don’t allow your soul to be riddled with numbness covered with scars that alter your awareness of any feeling!

Cry! Scream! Laugh! Yell! Curse!

Break the hardness of the settled pain

Shatter the illusion of the lie that you are strong by, being weak!

Strength does not come from being inauthentic or silent!

Do not let anyone steal your voice!

Do not let anyone steal your tears!

Your laughter!

Your opinion!

Your dreams!

Your feelings!

It is time to take back your power and restore your soul!

Stop considering others over yourself! Maybe they are not worth it…. Maybe they don’t care unless you stay quiet!

Don’t be a fool ……

Your soul is gasping for a breath ….


Free yourself….. No one is coming to save you!

You have the key!

Let the hostage out!

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