I WANT TO LIVE!
God please give me the strength and help to say good bye…. It has taken its toll on me in every way! But… My body can not handle it anymore. I cannot control or understand why others would create so much pain for me. But, I have tried and I must stop letting the pain rob me of my life, my joy and my health. It wasn’t my choice to do this – it was the only thing i can do to survive. My love will always be there but, I must accept their choices that they don’t need to have what I need. I have done all I can do … Please fill my emptiness with what is helpful for me. I need to for my heart to get better I cannot wait any longer feeling this pain. I hope I can learn to forgive what was taken from me. Too many tears, too much pain, and I have done my best. Time tells all I put this matter in Your hands. The truth is in Your hands. I must now become someone new, I must leave not just my past behind….. But I must say ” Good Bye” until one day those who I love may be changed.
I want to live!