God I think my tears are screaming
Trying to drown my words is almost impossible
I hold them in, I hold them down , I hold them under
The pain I feel is an ice cold steel blade that slides in and out of my brain
Screaming tears that have no words
Screaming tears that can’t be heard
All these messages in my head
I try to smother them in my bed
Questions with answers that make no sense
Why these screaming tears?
Give me words or give me strength
Give me something to stop this pain
What the hell have you done?
Fringes on a jacket? Back to the sun?
God is my trickster what have I done!
Screaming tears, words without noise
How can you be so indifferent, so cruel
and still sit on your throne
A bleeding heart is all I have known
Promises are the nails that pierce it through
Words without noise
God is a trickster
Yet, I am the jester of court
Who is laughing? Who even cares?
You just sit with your ambivalent stare!