Monthly Archives: August 2018


The strange thing about metamorphosis is that it is not a change of growth – it is a complete change of being.

The caterpillar actually digests itself. Can you imagine ? It eats itself until it digests itself into liquid.

So when it is reborn … It is reborn a completely new creature!

This so completely speaks about our painful hidden experience of being gradually consumed by events that shatter us, press us down and break us apart. We must agree with the process of the pain. Acceptance is the power of this process.

Born again! Wow! A new creature – completely changed!

Once you slithered among the twigs and leaves and then you become this amazing beautiful winged creature that flutters among the flowers with a totally different perspective.

Yes! You land on those leaves and branches you use to slither along. But, they no longer have any power over you in your ability.

So if you are in pain and you are going through a big change … you feel alone and your pain seems to be hidden deep inside don’t discredit what is taking place as positive. All things must change and everything is constantly moving. This is unavoidable!

It is the choice to accept your pain and understand the depths of what you are becoming. I don’t say this lightheartedly! The pain of being destroyed us not pleasant. But… If we will allow the process and accept our pain we can trust our outcome will be astounding! We many times pray for change, we long for greatness and desire the impossible. These answers don’t come easily it requires our total dedication to this process of becoming. So wherever your at in this beautiful process remind yourself that once you are reborn you can let go of what held you down by just the flutter of your wings. Trust the process! Faith cannot see everything but, it has the ability to believe anything is possible.


Once you realize you are an eternal traveller you will understand that this life is just a bus ride. You get off and on at certain places along the way. Enjoy the ride!

Memories …..

God I think my tears are screaming

Trying to drown my words is almost impossible

I hold them in, I hold them down , I hold them under

The pain I feel is an ice cold steel blade that slides in and out of my brain

Screaming tears that have no words

Screaming tears that can’t be heard

All these messages in my head

I try to smother them in my bed

Questions with answers that make no sense

Why these screaming tears?

Give me words or give me strength

Give me something to stop this pain

What the hell have you done?

Fringes on a jacket? Back to the sun?

God is my trickster what have I done!

Screaming tears, words without noise

How can you be so indifferent, so cruel

and still sit on your throne

A bleeding heart is all I have known

Promises are the nails that pierce it through

Words without noise

Screaming tears

God is a trickster

Yet, I am the jester of court

Who is laughing? Who even cares?

You just sit with your ambivalent stare!

I believe that the rain holds our moments…. If we are quiet and still while it is raining … Each drop carries with it’s sound peaceful memories. It is a silent cleansing of the soul. The elemental power of rain is healing and cleansing. It gives us the gift of time …time to reflect and look within. @sks2017

Ancient Ones


From the beginning,

We have been with you.

We are the ancient ones

And we remember.

We remember the time when there was only Love,

The time when all breathing was one.

We remember the seed of your being

Planted in the belly of the vast, black night.

We remember the red cave of deep slumber.

The time of forgetting,

The sound of your breath,

The pulse of your heart.

We remember the force

of your longing for life,

The cries of your birth

bringing you forth.

We are the Ancient Ones

And we have waited

and watched.

You say that you cannot remember that time

That you have no memory of us.

You say that you can not hear our voices

That our touch no longer moves you.

You say there can be no return

That something has lost,

That there is only silence.

We say the time of waiting is over.

We say the silence has been broken.

We say there can be no forgetting now.

We say listen.

We are the bones of your grandmother’s grandmothers.

We have returned now.

We say you cannot forget us now

We say we are with you and you are us.

Remember Remember.


When your happy you enjoy the music….

When your sad you understand the lyrics…..


Recognize that you have been challenged and survived since you can remember…. You have fled wolves in sheep clothing , dodged disguised bullets, jumped beautiful traps, avoided the arrowhead’s of tongues, wrestled down formidable ghosts of the past , learned to hurdle jealousy, you have swam in the undertows of sorrow, lost what could not be replaced and thieves stole what you could not afford to lose! Hand to hand combat with monsters, crawled under the barb wire of evil plots, climbed over the walls of trickery and have run miles of harsh terrain of betrayal and unknowing. Yes! Your a true blue triathlon life athlete….. You have overcome the challenges of the body, mind and soul. Congratulations ! You have had only the best trainers – the ones that are the closest to you. Lol! Here is your award! Pass it on!

You say Tomato and I say Tomato?

God is Life! How can one say God is male or female just because God created us to be one or the other. God is Creation! Why are so many fearful that if they don’t believe in God in a specific way that they are damned, cursed or lost? God is not fear! God is Love! One man paints God as a man and that’s his perspective of God. Another paints God as nature and that is his perspective of God. If I meet you and your dressed in a police officers uniform I would think you are a police officer and if I met you as a nurse I would think you were nurse. Let’s say they both have the same name except one is a man and one is a woman. Don’t both of these occupations save lives? One may say that Jesus is the only Way, the only Truth and the only Life and yet, isn’t Jesus -God incarnate as a man? Where was Jesus before he came to Earth as human? They say Jesus was in heaven with his Father. May I ask a question? Who is Jesus’s Mother? You might say Mary, of course. If creation is dependent to recreate is there not a male and a female necessary?

For so many years throughout history since before Jesus society has done its very best to put women in a lesser state of authority. To keep them in their proper places men have incited rules, codes, laws and so much more just to keep women from being. That’s right did I say Being?

The Ancient Native Americans understood the power of a woman and held her authority in it’s utmost respect. Although, it takes two to create a human being a woman is the sustainer of life. She is the one who carries that life and must bring it into the world to give it it’s own breath. Until that moment she is it’s life and their life is one.

What if God were a woman? What would that do to your perspective? Does God have to follow anyone’s rules? God honors your faith and actions but are not Gods plans higher than ours. If they cannot figure out how the pyramids were built then you can be assured no one could ever understand God’s plans even if it they were written down or spoken. The Bible which is considered God’s written Word still has many interpretations and unanswered mysteries. What we think we know, the less we should realize we know. So you may ask me does what your implying rule out the birth,death and resurrection of Christ? Does this mean I do not believe that this particular person came to Earth to die for or sins? I have not said any such thing.

I have read the Bible and I know the story very well. But, can I honestly say I understand why all this has happened? I mean if God knows everything God must of known what Adam ad Eve we’re going to do before they did it…. or maybe that was a part of the plan? You see that this idea of God is way over our heads. To have a relationship with God means that God must have a relationship with you. How do you prove this? It is only by your own personal belief and experience that you can know this and it cannot be transferred except by words to another person. This is your story!

Now there are religions in the world that actually believe in murdering others is an act of God. Is this God? They believe it is God. Now obviously, this is when we must look at this religious action and make a personal conscientious choice.

In the Old Testament which is written about the same God of the New Testament God had many killed and slaughtered. So lets think about this reasonably. What is your answer for this action that occurred?

Doesn’t that sound like the religions in the world that believe in killing others for their religious beliefs and their God?

I am not sure I have really met anyone willing to have this conversation. it is taboo to question such things as though, one who stands up in the boat and dare to cause it to rock.

What if you could let go of what you were taught and like Abraham in the Bible who was the first person after Adam and Eve to hear from God and have a relationship with this unknown voice. He did not know the rules or the story behind this voice. Abraham just did what he was told which in itself is quite amazing. Could you do that? They had at the time religious ways and acts to follow. Abraham did not have a book, a teacher or some magical wand he just listened.

When I stop to think of this enormous subject it makes me ponder and then I come to conclusion that who really knows God? We may know tiny pieces of what we think God is but, the fact that we could know God as God is, whatever God is would be absurd. I believe the smaller we become in this way and in our understanding the greater God ( Whatever God is) can reveal to us who or what God is. I have found that God is connected to everything and although, I don’t understand the darkness in the world I know there is no darkness in God. Everything exists within God. In fact, the more I write or talk about God the more confused and minuscule I become. Isn’t this true? What school could teach who God is? What book? I mean honestly, are we talking about the Creator of heaven and Earth? In six days? I am not attempting to create doubt in your beliefs but, I hope that I uproot your preconceived and even misconceived ideas. Hopefully enough to cause you to think outside your box because God created your box and God is the box, God is in you and your in the box and God is everything outside the box. Well I think that pretty much covers that! You really only think you have a “ box” because you see it, but you don’t. The box you have isn’t even really a box. Are you confused yet? Then you are at the beginning of true wisdom and going deeper.


You know what you have been through- only you!

Don’t let anyone dismiss, downplay or distort the difficulty of the things you have had to overcome


Don’t allow anyone to take away from you what you have given to life… yours and others.

We each have our own purpose and if you look around, the facts of your life whether good or bad are there.

Who can take that from you – NO ONE!

You have had to pay for your bad decisions, choices and actions – no one else – so how can anyone think they have the power over you to even suggest that you should pay again by throwing your past in your face.

In the same breath,considering all that you have had to overcome against all odds and still find yourself standing – no one can take credit for that either! Those are your successes no matter how small they may appear or how they may look to others.

If those people in your life can’t respect these facts then they are not on your level of consciousness …. Because you can only truly surround yourself with others who feel the same unconditionally.

So hold your head up, keep smiling because you are a strong, beautiful person!

Sending love @ SKS


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